If you have questions about God why ask Christian's? God is supposed to be alive and well today, ask him. If you seek God and God doesnt show you He is real then it is Gods fault and you cant be held accountable for not believing in him. Tell him that and see if he answers. But dont look for answers in Christian's because you will be disappointed, many of them really don't know God and have it wrong about him. They go to their Bible rather than going to God. Making the bible their god. When God is Spirit and not paper.