I didn't get into Christianity because I needed forgiveness of sin. At first I thought it would fill the void of my unhappiness in life. So I started praying. Then God answered me and spoke to me. In the next couple of weeks what he said came true. It led me to accept an invitation to church from someone. Then I would see and experience supernatural things in church and in my life. There was no doubt that God was real after this. I felt a call to ministry and pursued it. Over the years I found that Christianity and the church had many problems. But I loved god and believed it so I stuck with it. Today I dont really think I believe that evangelicalism is true. I don't take the Bible as literal anymore and will admit that a lot of it could be made up. I am seeing that God may not be who I thought he was and most of what I believed was wrong. But I still have seen and experienced too much to not believe there is a god and in the supernatural. So while I know God I really dont know him. And I dont know anything else either. Although I understand spiritual principles and how spiritual things work. What a mess! Maybe I was better off before god first spoke to me and changed my life?