I am actually about to the point where I dont need a religion at all. I can just be spiritual without having a system or organization or other people to join me. Thats a big thing for me. For the last 20 years I had to be a religious zealot and needed a religion but now its like I can be free of that and no longer have a need for it. Its going to be a long process deconstructing as I was a pastor and preacher and I got a degree in Biblical studies from the most well known conservative fundamental evangelical Bible college and seminary there is. I was insainly indoctrinated . I would have died for that stuff and despite having all kinds of problems in it I changed my life for it and lived strictly to it all. I was probably the most die hard, sold out for Jesus Christian you have ever met. I was so Holy and righteous that all the Christians and pastors in churches I went to seemed like satans seed. I thought I was the only one that was righteous. Everyone else was just posers.