Can totally relate, who is God really? I thought I knew and preached about it for years. But now realize I knew nothing. Yet I am reminded of the relationship I have had with Him, whoever He may be. There was something there that calmed me and gave me peace, something there that encouraged me and challenged me, something there that would often intervene and protect me, something there that called me to trust and have faith, something there that became my fest friend who I talked to and confided in, something there that often answered my prayers and valued me, some supernatural force that did the miraculous and made Himself real to me, something that gave me purpose and I could literally feel his presence. Something that truly loved me even though I am not perfect. Something that gave me hope and a future. That was real and that is what I know, it isn't a clear picture but it is enough for now. And I can honestly say God I am still in love with you whoever you are.